I haven't worn my retainer in over a year. My teeth are moving. I can't afford braces again, nor do I want them. I'm going to have to deal with my teeth the way they are. Oh well. But I should get a new retainer. That, too, costs money.
I did badly (academically) this semester. I got my first college C. I need to do much better from now on or I won't be in medical school.
My family is driving me nuts. They care about nothing I care about. They argue incessantly about stupid, petty things. I can't wait to move out again.
I've never been in a better place spiritually. I'm finally reading the Bible, and understanding it. I'm going to church. I'm praying. I actually think about God most of the time.
Michael introduced me to his family. I visited them in Winter Haven twice this past week. We went water skiing. I like them a lot. It's easy there, not awkward.
I know he likes me. I love being with him.
I'm jealous of this girl we know named Megan. Because they went camping together, and they're friends, and she's a lot like him. And she's very pretty. I know he likes me, but I wonder if I was his second choice. But I have to remind myself that he's not that kind of guy.
He almost left a few weeks ago. I was shaking and nervous, unable to eat, until he called to tell me he decided to stay, for the time being. I was so relieved.
I'm so worried, though, that he won't be here for long.
When will he be figured out enough to date me? I just want that security so badly.
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