I'm not sure if I should be reading these books... it was taking my attention away from God. And I'm worried that it will stick me right back into my "romanticized" version of life. Where romantic love is the most important thing. Where I commit idolatry with romantic love. But it's better to learn self control than to cut it out altogether, I think.
I've been struck as to how closely these books have resembled my relationship with Michael.
In Twilight, he is Edward. There's always a cautious space between us, we are undefined. I'm always waiting on him. Always worried that he will leave me, for some stupid, noble reason. His self control certainly exceeds mine. And I am constantly baffled that he even talks to me.
And in New Moon, he is Bella, and I am Jacob. We fit so well together, and I am obviously in love with him. And he likes me... sort of. But I'm willing to wait.
I miss him. It's been a week, and it will be at least one more week until I can see him. I wonder if he misses me at all?
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