Lately.
I haven't posted in a while... I'm not sure that I'll get everything down quite right. Should I work backwards? Or should I attempt to move chronologically? I don't think the order matters much, so I will just list these events in the order they occur to me.
Starting with two nights ago. There was supposed to be a "Jesus, Friends, Nature" meeting, but no one showed up except for Mike and Evan and I. Evan left after a short while, and Mike and I just talked. For a very long time. Until 3 am. We talked about, oddly enough, "life, God, death and your family". It was extremely interesting. I feel that I can't really chronicle the exact conversation, as if that would somehow cheapen it. But I want to remember the conversation. But I think it will have to suffice to say that I learned quite a bit.
Then, last night. I went to Andrew and Mike's apartment, where we watched Into the Wild. And ironically, this character represented exactly what I need to work on in myself, exactly what Mike and I were talking about the night before. That "happiness [is] only real when shared". And that I am incapable of that, and that he used to be incapable. It was quite perfect. Then I stayed for a while, and we talked about assorted philosophical/theological topics.
So I'm not sure what's happening with Mike. I would be ridiculously lucky to be anything more than friends with him. I am ridiculously lucky to be friends with him. And despite our current relationship, which is pretty close, I don't believe he wants anything else.
I think I'll post about other relationships much more in depth later. But I have been talking to Peter and Mike (whom I met at the end of last year... see earlier posts) quite a bit lately.
Until then.
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