Yesterday, all of a sudden, I got this horrible feeling. Cold and hot, terrified and devastated. Worried. Lonely. Exactly the feeling I got November 22, when... But this time, it was seemingly unprovoked. Well, kind of. It was right after he told me that he wasn't sure if he wanted to go to a friend's house with me. That he might read instead. But that's certainly not worth a breakdown! And he ended up coming with me anyways! And the effects had been wearing off steadily over the past 24 hours.
Then it ended when--- he visited me at work, completely unexpectedly. He was skating with some friends over by the chemistry buildings, and came to get a drink of water, to say hi to me. All of a sudden, I was happy but frustrated. No more loneliness.
What is this? How can I be so affected by the mere presence of this one person?
If this isn't love, then this is the closest I've ever been. The only thing that distinguishes this from love is the problem of reciprocation.
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