Church, with Michael.
Beach, with Michael.
Dinner, with Michael.
Library, with Michael.
Home, with Michael.
This is so ridiculous. See my point?
At the beach, we just read most of the time. We got into a conversation a little later about some verses. Then, on the way home, he told me a lot. He told me about what happened around the time he broke up with his ex girlfriend. Well, she broke up with him. And he was devastated. He stopped smoking. She started seeing someone else. Then one day, he went to lettuce lake, and just laid down in a clearing for a while. And he was thinking about everything and nothing. And trying to feel happy for her. Later, he felt like he needed to leave everything behind, as Abraham did. And he decided to go, but first he would tell his parents. He said he didn't even want to leave really, he just felt like he should. But his parents convinced him to stay. And ever since, he's felt like he's been compromising.
This explains so much. He really isn't ready to date anyone right now. It was so hard for me to hear all of this. Because it hurts to imagine him hurting so much.
I wonder if he tells anyone else all of this.
I want to marry him. But I'm not sure he wants me in any lasting manner. And he certainly can't get in that sort of relationship now. But I would feel quite comfortable making that commitment with him, to be honest. Although I would make myself wait.
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