I talked to him last Sunday. I can't believe it's been a week. It was easy to lead into the question, because a woman assumed we were dating earlier, and people at Aletheia bothered us about dating as well. I just asked him how I should respond. At first, he was very vague and confusing. He sort of hinted around at it... and eventually I forced him into a corner. He's not interested. A few things I want to remember him saying... "I just want to be as good a friend to people as they'll let me." "I used to never let myself have close friends that were girls... Holly is probably the first I've had." "I'm just not in the right place for dating right now." "I'm horrible at this relationship stuff. Even with Priscilla, it was just recognizing what had happened."
Monday was horrible. Tuesday was a little better. And the long weekend home, focusing on other things helped. It still hurts a little. But the weird thing is, I haven't lost him. I still have him as a close friend. Nothing has really changed, at least from his perspective.
I've been feeling hopeful the past few days. I pray that the hope is warranted.
No comments:
Post a Comment