Thursday, October 9, 2008

first post

"Blessed are the pure at heart
For they shall see God"
-matthew 5:6

I want to be good so badly. to be unselfish. to love everyone. to be everything i should be. to practice what i preach. to truly love another person. to truly mourn another person. to be everything i should be. to be a responsible soul. to be right. to be special. to be good.

yet selfishly, my main concern is my intense desire to be loved. more than anything, i want to love someone and have them love me in return. i have never been in love. but i want it so badly. to be in love. not to have a stupid boyfriend or a hookup. i want the real thing.

"i want love how it is, a sleep deprivation pain in my chest that is only filled when [his] voice rings through my ear, touches my hand, or slows down to catch a red light so we can have one more second in each other's eyes, and lips"
-stephen christian

3 comments:

candace parker said...

I'm on the same page with you :)

where'd you get that quote from Stephen?
I love him.
oh, btw I saw your comment on his latest post and I completely agree with you :)

aletheia said...

thank you! It's nice to have someone reading what I've written. That quote was on his blog in february of '04, I think.

candace parker said...

totally know what you mean :)

I shall look! :D